There are just too many things to do. Go to work, 12 kids under 3, pick up this, drive here, dinner…shit…DINNER! Bath-time, bedtime, tomorrow lunches. Laundry, Did I eat Lunch today? Water; drink more. Cry a little. Vacuum, garbages out. Brush your teeth, hair fixing for the 7th? 7th time today. Kisses. Slowdown. Breathe. Okay, Im done. No crocheting today :-( didnt talk to my sister today :-( I did see other family:-) Stress over writing a good "go" versus write for release. Reeeelaaaaaaax. *Sigh* time for sleep ...... :-)
Tuesday, 4 December 2012
Friday, 2 November 2012
Grandpa Callard
It has been way too long since Ive last written......thing is, life-changing events have taken place and I needed time to process before being in a place where I was willing to amplify my emotions through the release of writing.
I know a man who has worked his whole life,
And he wears the hats of many men.
A Husband, a Father, a Grandfather, a brother;
A man by the name of Raymond.
This man taught lessons numerous,
With his action he led his way.
Always with a fire for justice,
Always with honor complete at the end of his days.
This man taught me you never stop dreaming,
That you must always have a plan.
He taught me Discipline, Respect, and laughter.
He taught me to lend a helping hand.
For this man was my Grandpa,
Who's love for us was infinitely strong.
I will never say goodbye to him,
For in our hearts he lives forever on.
Raymond Callard RIP xoxoxoxo
Saturday, 6 October 2012
Tuesday, 4 September 2012
Monday, 3 September 2012
Croquet
Im Left-handed and am learning to croquet Right-handed bc my Grandma is RH and teaching me. A good 5-7 hours into making this scarf I laugh at myself realizing my Husband would so much rather own a touque for Christmas. Well.....let me tell you something about dominance. My Left hand wont stay the f outta there! My chains and jazz are tight and miserable. I finally get RH dominance and 2 hours later have a finger puppet lol Even my 20 day old niece will be to big for this 'hat'. I change the increase and chain sticking to what I think is a doublechain and am 5? Rows or 'circles' down. Im thinking 4-8 more and Ive taught myself, ode to Grandmas Skills, a wonky homemade hat for my daughter. Ill post a pic as soon as its completed.
Wednesday, 29 August 2012
Rainbows?
When you're young you know RIGHT from WRONG. Then, as you grow older, more and more people become different shades of right and wrong; identifiable by a color. One person blue, another yellow, green.......before you know it we are being told what color to feel, what color to be, what color is what. There is magic in a person who knows when to stfu. Respect to be had for the person who refuses silence from fear. Fear of negativity due to rebellion of anothers opinion.......of their color. RAINBOWS BITCHES :-) It is possible to co-exist as one.
"His side, Her side, the Truth"
Wednesday, 8 August 2012
SuperSweet
I sat there, sari woven tealest teal, Motherhood draped upon me as my child curled inwards upon my lap. Her mottled faded real blanket, cherished heart of hearts blanket, cacooning her towards me. I remembering thinking "I should help" and then my heart sang. I realized I already had a job and I was doing it. My joy was fauceted trillion-fold as serenity filled my aura and swooned peace upon my child.
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
Super.....oh?
Do people actually withhold sex as a means to get something accomplished?? Blows my mind that anyone would want to say 'no'. Then again, Im starting to think its how Im getting trained to be housewife. :-o
Thursday, 21 June 2012
SuperBaseball
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
Clever Carter
http://www.specialneeds.com/children-and-parents/autism/clever-carter-story-about-autism
Monday, 14 May 2012
SuperOw
Sunday, 13 May 2012
SuperRant
Too often there is so much left undone do to weariness and fear. What is the gene that allows us to get up and go and conquere? is it success? Or a fear to fail? What about a simple life. A life that revolves around family and friends. Work your 9-5 and come home. Weekends filled with laughter, parties and family BBQs.
How many habits are addictions? Smoking; some say a habit, others an addiction. I've heard people say they haven't tried to quit because they fear their lack of success. Strength to try......Gumption?
NIN "Every day is exactlly the same" .....sometimes that isn't a good thing.
Sunday, 6 May 2012
SuperWorkshop
these ease through love. That a child who cries is responding to their lymbic system alerting them that something is amiss,duh, their mom/dad there! This crying is actually the child sharing their unease as they feel safe enough to do so with me as their awayfromhome attatchment. Bridge the gap. If a child is away for periods of time, shorten that by bringing their mom/dad closer. This can be done through pictures, a special blanket or toy, notes, etc there is no limit. If a child needs to follow you room to room to room, LET THEM. They are alarrmed and need you for their safety. I applied this today and its been a fantastic day full of laughter!
SuperTransition
Thursday, 12 April 2012
SuperWTF
I threw away my shoes that had the fate to fall in human poop. New Balance shoes have grooves and nooks, that aint coming out unless you have an iron gag-reflex and time. I was going to buy new shoes this weekend but fate interviened. I now have no shoes bc I'm an idiot. How am I to get shoes (go to the store) when my shoes are in the garbage? Oh and when my wallet is m.i.a? Thank you Michelle! On the advantagious side, the shoes I didn't buy today, DO NOT have shit on them :) So for the remainder of the afternoon and a nightclass I rocked badass compfy ugh boots and sporty/yoga shorts, yikes. Meanwhile you're so distracted by the chaos that is my wordrobe that I'm silently forgetting the bandage over my weeping cut across my right knee.......and the duct tape keeping the dressings there to cover it. BAM!
The evening arrives and I am yet to go home but class has finished just before 9. I do a driveby of "Payless" to remember they're closed and I still do not know where my wallet is. My knee is sore and I don't have another dressing. I don't want to rock sporty/yoga shorts with boots agian so I call my gf who owns the boots I've already borrowed and pray my bizzar situation isn't about to land me awkward. Do you have a pair of flipflops I can borrow? I'm getting new shoes on my lunchbreak tomorrow. Pffft........AWKWARD! lol Seriously gratefull for aweosome people ;)
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand
The End
Tomorrow is going to kick ass. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! Tomorrow I will have Friday coffee :) Tomorrow I am Wonderwoman and tonight; I sleep.
Friday, 6 April 2012
SuperSpazz
The cut slimed stone walls burried the fallen crest of the setting sun. Firery orange drifting into the sinjed fade of hope dying. Screams broke through the fog cracking the crisp lines of a clammy silence. Breath rasped as their back suctioned to the green of the stones circling them. Silence wakes. Footsteps when there should be none....
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
SuperWarm
I love the feeling of love. Simple I know, yet it never fades to feel so completely warm inside. The flush of a smile as a phone call is received and you reconnect with 'a lost friend' which really is code for a) had a baby b) back in school or c) surprise! I get busy too ;-) So.....my friends, thanks for the call....the thought.....the text.....for even if we only talk once every few weeks, or even every few months, the warmth of knowing you has never faded <3
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
SuperWow
It honestly astounds me when I learn something that someone has preached at me incessantly. You can say something to be repeatedly but its when I am able to wind the gears in my own mind and see the results that it actually MEANS something. How often have I done this?! How often are people trying to help others but we have forgotten how to learn! How to hear and how to understand. Amazing :-)
Sunday, 25 March 2012
SuperConsequences
My daughters latest and greatest is to rip her way into a powerstruggle with a tenfoot tall toddler attitude to try and expand her boundaries. Example a......."Go to the park?" she asks. "Sure" I reply, "We need to clean up first though" (put her hockey stick and ball away) "NO", "Well, then we're not going to the park" this repeats until she decides to listen....so three asks and the same three you need to clean up first. She finally does, I ask her what she would like to clean up, the ball or the stick and I take the other in to demonstrate teamwork, helping and all that good stuff. Off to the park! NOPE. Example b....."Hold my hand please" "NO!" ....aw man I inwardly groan, here we go again. "Claire we are not going to the park unless you hold my hand" the cycle repeats and we make it to the park. Here I am pushing her in the swing mentally patting my back and puffing up my selfesteem and the lil bugger starts screeching at me to stop. So I stop the swing and ask if if everythings alright. "Do it again?" she asks....."But you just yelled for me to stop?! :| okay, I'll push you again, but no yelling. If you yell we are going home". Suicides, she yells, and LAUGHS at me! Well now I REALLY have to follow through. Now she wont even walk! Shes kicking her boots off and doing the whole limp body. I try several attempts and finally say "Claire, boots on or off its all good. It is time to go home. Now either you walk home and we continue to play, or I help you and we go home and you go to bed. She totally starts walking only to go limp in the middle of the road, grrrrr.....so I pick her up and carry her home with her boots in my other hand. Hone, brush teeth, diaper change. I say again, "Yelling is not okay. It hurts my feelings and its rude. If we are to go to the park we work as a team. You need to listen to me to be safe. I love you"
She fell asleep in seconds. Sigh. So how much is toddler, vs tired, vs terrible twos? No idea lol but thank goodness shes sleeping bc Im freakin done lol
Friday, 16 March 2012
SuperSmile
And my heart sang love as happiness fell from my smile. Love me. Hear me. To hold, to hug, to breathe, to love. Spring dawns and summer will crest. Each day to live, to give our best. Be kind, be honest. Live true, live strong. A kind heart and morals cannot steer you wrong.
Honesty is modern bravery
Sunday, 11 March 2012
SuperSimple
Water. It gives life and creates wonder. This picture reminds me of the hidden lands a childs imagination creates. That puddles are acres of possibilities. A splash, a ripple and an explosion of a created chaos. Water styling the edges of her rubber boots as her laughter crinkles her triangle blue eyes.
Tuesday, 21 February 2012
SuperHorrible
What an aweful feeling.....the feeling of helplessness. Is helplessness needing to ask for help? Or is asking for help a way of regaining control and implementing further improvements? Having kids is hard :-( there is so much worry and unknown. How do we turn it off? Well, at least dial it down lol I have a problem with relaxing, securitization and fear for the unknown. It used to be fun, prekid, but now I worry too much, think too much, and the chaos of a forever plotting/planning brain is going to drive me crazy :-( Life doesn't get easier.....so what do I do when I don't get stronger?
Saturday, 11 February 2012
SuperBrave
Thursday, 26 January 2012
SuperTwo
post scripture
Claire woke at 5am hungry lol Mika awoke to Claire talking and they both fell sleep five minutes or so later (Claire after eating as the "I'm hungry Mommy" would not stop and I didn't want her to wakeup Mika which happened anyway lol I grabbd my blanket and slumbered between the two for the next two hours and now they are playing happily
Saturday, 21 January 2012
SuperForeverYoung
Remember when our world revolved around Magic? I would say it was that magic that kept us Forever Young. A world revolved around our favorite shows, our favorite characters. In this picture, tucking our favourites into bed :) Dreams, love, magic and wonder......
Memories and smiles,
Warmth and dreams.
Only a child sees,
Wonders of innocence unseen.
Happiness and laughter,
Joy through love.
Tenderness given,
As only a child could.
Heart seen in her eyes,
As she tucks her doll to sleep.
Forever Young my child,
I will help you keep.
Tuesday, 17 January 2012
SuperWhine
I'd like to think I don't have 'these' mornings often. In this moment of taboo selfdisclosure, forbid anyone should mention a time of sadness, I am; I feel sad. I'm having a 'the world doesn't quite feel loving today' moment. Then as the sad permeates around my heart inking it sour, I grow mad. I don't want to hear all the reasons why a) lifes so awesome be thankful or b) I agree because....FUCK THAT....it's a 17year olds immature tantrum now crying out, strangled and hurt. Oooooh, I can start to feel a clearing of the anger towards selfrealization....today my love tank is running low. A pissant to myself for not recognising it and paying attention to my own needs, for ultimately; only I can supply them *sigh* okay....My time for sad was felt, my anger now ceased, a slip of guilt felt and some embarrassed anguish *breathe* now a time for happy, let's start this grump off with some calm shall we? Lol
Monday, 16 January 2012
SuperGrowth
Every parent says it, every person has heard it, yet you never REALLY believe how fast children grow until the child is yours. Claire crawled at 5 1/2 months, walked at 9 months, is under 2 and talking in sentences and having conversations....uh...? Where's my baby gone? :-(
I know children grow fast, I see it happen, but when it's your babe....it's magic. Even when they shit on the toilet it's magic lol
With every smile,
With every laugh.
I learn and grow,
As I see you grow past;
The baby you once were.
Your words are clear,
Your emotions strong.
Your eyes fill with meaning,
As your eyebrows move along;
My little Toddler.
All too soon you'll be my little Kindergartner,
All too soon, all too soon.
But for now I have more magic;
More moments just Mommy and you
Xoxo
Thursday, 12 January 2012
SuperDiscipline
I often am asked "How do you get them to listen to you?" (the children) and its quite simple. DISCIPLINE. Get off your ass and follow through. MODEL. Get off your ass and show then how to do it WITH A SMILE ON YOUR FACE:-) People wonder why children give attitude lol because they were TAUGHT attitude. I know, I know, yikes the next time my daughter throws a tantrum....BUT, thinking about words said to a driver who cut me off or words uttered when I stubbed my toe, and guess where her behavioural arsenal has increased from? Surprise! Without meaning to have taught her, I HAVE given her, her next tantrum. So....lets be disciplined. Lets train ourselves to laugh, to sing, to HAVE FUN and FOLLOW THROUGH, MODEL and you will find groups of children, children, people, laughing with you and listening.....
Monday, 9 January 2012
SuperChild
I am thankful that as an early childhood teacher I can repeatedly enjoy the quirks of childhood throughout my adult work day. A perfect example being my amazing 'link beard'. It caused such a cascade of laughter as I shuffled about uttering insensibility to all I passed by. The wave of smiles tilting up to mark the childrens eyes as even my fellow coworkers giggled at the silliness I was displaying. Life is beautiful and it breathes beauty often through laughter.
Saturday, 7 January 2012
SuperWonder
Whenever I'm given one of these looks I have to marvel at the innocence of childhood. I am reminded to retrain myself to think happy thoughts, and my reminder as of late is that she is still surprised to find the moon in the sky EACH time. It's her laughter that follows lifes simplicities for literally no reason. This picture, with her 'cape' on was her "wow'd" when looking up at the sky one day. A sky that we see just as we breathe. We complain about it; no sun, too much sun, we whine about clouds. Yet a child, regardless, sees beauty. To her the mass of angry grey seething across the sky stills her with its wonder.
Friday, 6 January 2012
SuperOldschool
SuperDumb
The title was supposed to be "superannoying" for what was going to be my first blog....well, its superdumb now because I'm the goose who titled the whole shabang incorrectly. It's continuing on the SuperDumb track as its now taken me three days and multiple attempts to write what has now become a rant. Well, lets make it a good one.
Sometimes Im slow and stupid
Just as anyone can be
What's special about this clearly
Is its not funny when its happening to me
So fuck you technology
You sure are pissing me off
What is the expression?
Turn your head to the side and cough!