I'd like to think I don't have 'these' mornings often. In this moment of taboo selfdisclosure, forbid anyone should mention a time of sadness, I am; I feel sad. I'm having a 'the world doesn't quite feel loving today' moment. Then as the sad permeates around my heart inking it sour, I grow mad. I don't want to hear all the reasons why a) lifes so awesome be thankful or b) I agree because....FUCK THAT....it's a 17year olds immature tantrum now crying out, strangled and hurt. Oooooh, I can start to feel a clearing of the anger towards selfrealization....today my love tank is running low. A pissant to myself for not recognising it and paying attention to my own needs, for ultimately; only I can supply them *sigh* okay....My time for sad was felt, my anger now ceased, a slip of guilt felt and some embarrassed anguish *breathe* now a time for happy, let's start this grump off with some calm shall we? Lol
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